How Much Is Too Much

Too Much

I went back to work recently and now I’ve found myself a second part time job to go along with my first part time job. Is this too much? Right now I find myself turning around and running into myself. I am not sure if up is down and left is right. I went from being bored to just wanting a few stolen hours to myself, with my husband, and my dogs. 

Fast Paced Life

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I am not sure how long I’ll be able to keep up with this pace. Staying busy is top priority, but downtime is also an essential part of living. Not wanting to get burned out is big. Knowing it can happen I try and schedule things. The problem is my second part time job is very short notice. I’ll get a text in the morning asking if I can work for however many hours that day. The problem is I love the place. Although I still feel the need to have some time for myself.

It’s a Wednesday and I have to go to work and I don’t feel like it. I’m tired and just want to stay home. It isn’t going to happen with my work ethic. But I can dream, can't I?

I Miss Being Home

It was so busy at work, it was chaotic. My left wrist is sore from when I broke it. I was just exhausted when I drove home. At times it makes me wonder if it’s worth it. The extra money is nice but I’m gone so much. I miss my husband, and my dogs. Sometimes I just miss being home. Knowing it’s good for me to go out and socialize makes it a little easier being gone. Two part one jobs aren't all that easy. Plus I’m 63, not a spring chicken. More like an old hen.

Rethinking what I’m doing may have to come into play. Maybe less hours so I get a day to myself. I think I need that. I’m not that much of a social butterfly. I do like my alone time. 

That being said, I know it’s important for me to stay social. It works my brain, so it doesn’t get soft and mushy. Staying busy is what I like to do. 

Yoga or Meditation

Maybe I should start meditating. I’ve never done it but I’ve heard it works wonders. Deep cleansing breaths. The hot tub helps also. Most times I don’t have time to get in it, but once in a great while I love a good soak. The heat feels very relaxing, I could fall asleep in it. Gary is soaking in it almost daily. I think his body needs it. Buying the hot tub was one of our most brilliant decisions we’ve made together. I don’t think we’d ever get rid of it. Hopefully it lasts forever. Now is the time to soak in it with the weather being cold. It feels extremely hot when you first get in, but then your body adjusts and it’s just perfect. Whoever doesn’t have one I’d recommend getting one. They really are wonderful and so relaxing. 

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We are on the run again tomorrow with-it being Thanksgiving.  Sunday is the only day I get to stay home. I find myself busy cleaning, scrubbing floors, bathrooms, laundry, etc. You name it. I do it on Sunday. 

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Sometimes I wish every day was Sunday 

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