Accept All of Me

Who Am I

I’m part quiet, part loud, part sassy, and part stand-offish. This describes all of me. Accept me as I am or don’t accept me at all. It really doesn’t matter in the long run. I’m 63 years old and I am not changing. I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. My memory fades the older I get. At times I have no recollection of my childhood. Perhaps that is a blessing in disguise.

Moody, Me?

There are times where a mood hits me, and alone time is necessary. My husband knows this and leaves me alone. Like everyone, crankiness invades my body, so don’t bother me. This doesn’t happen often as normally I have a positive outlook on life. Sitting and listening is something I enjoy. Whether it is breakfast with a friend. (let’s get caught up) or someone speaking at a podium. My ears are open. 

My Career

My sassiness comes from being in law enforcement my whole career. Being the voice of reason over the loudspeaker and instructing the inmates what to do or where to go, it’s hard to let go when you issue orders for most of your life. Or listening to their tales of how and why they are in jail, at times makes my head spin. 

We Love Ballgames

I’m loud at my grandson's ball games. Football, baseball, or basketball. My husband Gary and I are their biggest cheerleaders. Always encouraging, super proud of them for even playing. They both excel at sports. Which makes watching them fun. To see them struggle is not what I want for them. Play if you want to play but don’t if you don’t want to. It should be their choice. They need to have a voice. 

Let Me Read

Being quiet is something I do when I read. If there is a good book in front of me, I can read all day. Thrillers are my usual read but I’ve found a new author whom I love. Her name is Colleen Hoover. She is nowhere near the genre I read. But for some reason I cannot put her books down. If you’ve never read her you need to.

No, I'm Not

My stand-offish side is not what it may appear to be. Many people think being quiet or sitting and just listening is being stand-offish. I disagree. There are times when I won’t have anything to say or maybe it’s just better if I keep my mouth shut. It is a learning process and I’ve put my foot in my mouth more than once. So, this is something maybe I need to work on.

All of My Parts

So, there are many parts of me. To accept me you need to accept all the parts. We are all complex beings with many different personalities. I’m not apologizing for any of mine. I’ve done that my whole life and it isn’t worth it. So, take the crazy with the not so crazy, the light with the dark, and the normal with the bizarre. 

Don't Apologize

We only get one go around in this life. It’s too short to spend it apologizing for the way you live. I’m not looking for an apology from anyone and I expect the same in return. Live and let live. 

It's Ok

You may not agree with me all the time. I most certainly will not agree with you all the time. Each of us have our own way of dealing with the life we live. The niche we carve out for ourselves. 

Are We on Borrowed Time

Being in my sixties my husband and I believe we are already living on borrowed time. Who knows what happens from one day to the next. Alive today and gone tomorrow. So, tackle everything life throws at you. Don’t stress the small stuff, have fun with the big stuff. Live every day like it’s your last. You never know when it’s your turn. 

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It’s not hyperbole if you believe it to be the truth.

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Lastly, live and love for yourself, not anyone else. 

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